Take me how I am, cause you know I'll never change

[impersona]

day 17: worst RPing experience you've ever had

THERE IS A SUPER DEPRESSING ANSWER I WAS GOING TO GIVE, BUT I DON'T WANNA BE A TOTAL DRAG ON A SUNDAY.   IM me if you want it.

This answer is less of  a drag.   In terms of sceneing with someone, the worst actually happened fairly early on, while I was still in the Final Fantasy RPG scene (which was a ginormous clusterfuck in its own right, though I got a really good friend out of the deal.)   I played a black mage named Leona at the time, who played absolutely on the 'sultry sex-bomb black mage' thing, but in spite of my inexperience and general stupidity at the time she actually had real motivation and depth to her ('bang dudes' was -not- a motivation of hers - she was actually rather private, and was ruthless because she needed to find the sister she caused to get kidnapped years before).  I'm actually proud of her when I look back.  

So at the time, I actually had not played any Final Fantasy games, but there were enough guides and webpages for me to figure out what each class is capable of doing.  At the time, I was in a scene with this guy (urgh) who was playing a monk.  Black mages being all about offensive magic, and monks who are capable of physical attacks and some healing.  Well, in the scene we are fighting a ghost knight in a church, and the ghost cast Silence (can't use magic) on Leona and Blind (very low physical hit accuracy) on the monk, totally incapacitating both.  When I discussed it with the player, I made it clear that we had to find a cool team-work way of defeating the ghost knight without the character's normal attacks. 

The dude RPer seemed to take my meaning a different way.  Just one post after the Blind/Silence was cast, he has his character SCREAM in the church, and I shit you not, he describes his character as using LATENT SONAR ABILITIES to figure out where the ghost knight is, and kills it in one punch.  An ability never mentioned in his app.  An ability that no monk has.  An ability that makes NO SENSE. 

I was a freaking mess for a few days after that.  I had been proud of the story up until then, but I felt like I got slapped in the face and steamrolled and pretty much every other bad cliche for getting totally shat on.  

Mods never did anything, because they were all dudes too interested in code to really care about the RP portion of the forums.
 
Epilogue:  When I moved on from FF RP into the Sailor Moon scene, the first thing I did was create a Tuxedo Mask character so that I would never have an obnoxious character hitting on mine without me having some control over it (YEAH THAT LOGIC DIDN'T WORK OUT).   I was pretty certain this dude RPer, who seemed to have a weird crush on me, would not follow me into a Sailor Moon game.  But a week into it, he IMs me with a half-complete application for the Sailor Moon character, and said he'd name her 'Gina', which means "queen' in Latin and 'silver' in Japanese.  Which would have been clever HAD HE NOT KNOWN MY REAL NAME WAS GINA, WHICH HE DID, AND WAS ALSO EMOTICONING CREEPY EYE-WINKS AT ME AS HE TOLD ME.  

Also there was once an applicant in Angels who kept on trying to get me to admit that Galen would go gay for his character.  WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY


day 18: do you play more good-guys or bad-guys? which is more fun to you?

I play more good-guys, totally.  As I mentioned before, I am attracted towards making characters who have a definite sense of justice.  I like characters who can clearly distinguish between what is wrong and what is right, and if they do something that is morally wrong, they do understand it was wrong and find ways to express their regret.  If I play good-guys, I do favor playing good guys who grapple hard with personal demons, who stumble and fuck up but still try to protect other people at the end of the day.   Out of all of my characters, without a question Vay is the most 'pure' good guy I have - the thought of him willingly doing something malicious to another person makes my brain do the Blue Screen of Death.  Kazuo is number-two most pure, though he can get jealous and desperate at times.  Warren is probably my coldest and most ruthless good-guy, but what saves him is his honest love for his country and desire to protect his subjects. 

But I've had a few bad-guy characters who were TOTAL RIOTS and fun to play - Cobalt Blue from my old Rainbow Brite/Sailor Moon RP
was unapologetically violent, crude, and a total, complete punk (he often played off of a friend's villian character, Green Nickel, and their relationship can be best compared to Deon and Dusty, only a lot darker, violent, and riddled with ho-yay).   Mulli promised to become very fun when I had that story with Pixie going, ARGH. 

Liam is probably the villain I have who is the most frightening, and I think it is because there is a very potent emotional energy to him.  When I'm in a Liam RP or mode, it's almost overwhelming how powerful his feelings get to me, even though the character himself is rather good at disguising how he feels.  I think what unsettles me the most about Liam is that yes, he did abuse his girlfriend and hit her, but the problem is, he really was motivated by a love for her so powerful that he got torn apart by his fear of her leaving, and that he had a history of being abused by his own parents, so he was even more confused and hurt when he started acting the same.  Liam does have a sense of justice, and he does understand that he's done some unforgivably terrible things in his life.  But he doesn't have the strength it needs to change himself, and instead keeps on going on hurting people and only dreaming of his sins being atoned for.

day 19: favorite brand of evil

Lol I went on a rant about Liam before I noticed what this question even was.  There are three brands I like:

1)  Brainwashed evil.  It can be a cop out, but I'm still a sucker for it.  I had a LOT of fun developing Kazuo's brainwashed backstory, let me tell you. 

2)  Punk-evil.  I haven't played this myself since Cobalt Blue, but I like the trope in general.  I like the idea of a young man/young woman acting out against the world, lashing out against everything and causing chaos, but being unable to confront the one person/issue/demon that really makes them feel so lonely and powerless.  

3)  Emotionally-overwhelmed evil.  Liam, again, getting overwhelmed by his guilt, his insecurities, his fear of being judged in the afterlife, his love, and most of all, his own need to feel like there is someone who needs him, which usually leads him emotionally abuse other people, to make them feel like they need him to live.  Mulli is the second case - even though she embodies Order and prides herself upon being a cold, impartial scientist.  She has some very powerful emotions in her but her pride never allowed her to admit it, and she still couldn't admit that (a) she loved Kaolinite more than her own life and (b) the death of Kaolinite, and how Mulli blamed herself for it, which all is really driving Mulli's suicide mission to render the universe in death and Silence.  She latched onto Lucifer's ideals for an excuse not to give how she felt a personal meaning.

Someone promise me that one day, I will enjoy the Christmas season again ;_________;

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Someone promise me that one day, I will enjoy the Christmas season again ;_________;

I'll enjoy the Christmas season again once the Township Starbucks carries more Cranberry Bliss Bars and Christmas music is completely banned from B101.1 and I FINISH MY GODDAMNED YULETIDE