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Jan. 8th, 2011 10:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
impersonaI didn't want to do my 'year in review' post last week mostly because I was sick and crazy, and I didn't feel like I could give everything its proper perspective.
But I want to say that honestly, 2010 was one of the best years I had, and that is entirely because of:
(a) my birthday month of Feb being enjoyable in my memory, For one thing, VEGAS. VEGAS!!! Oh my god I should have spent a week on that vacation. Met Kol and Ren and Bri and Addie and Z and WE GAVE A SHOUT OUT TO RU and we got awesome shirts. I remember being anxious for much of February, but I remember going on Adventures with Angie that I hadn't done before, and it balanced out. Also, I think I bought my favorite piece of jewelry there, my jade turtle necklace Genbu, at the Sugarloaf faire with Rel and Angie.
(b) DRIVING ACROSS COUNTRY WITH ANGIE IN APRIL. You guys can guess that it takes a special person to tolerate 5 days together, non-stop, in a Chevy and hotel rooms. I remember the trip incredibly fondly, especially our restraunt adventures, THE COWBOY MUSEUM WHICH WAS THE COOLEST THING EVER, Foot High Pie, the Oklahoma City bombing memorial (one of the few times this year I cried, in fact, but that was because it was amazingly moving and effective as a memorial), and we talked about wildly ridiculous things, my favorites being the AUs for Kingdom: Mexico AU, GENDERBENT BANDOM AU, Subway-and-Adult Novelty Store AU (in which all of the characters either work at a Subway or an Adult Novelty Store, because along Rt 66 there were both of these about once every ten miles). As we said, we wished we had two weeks to do this trip.
Also, when I left, ANGIE GOT ME A YU-GI-OH CAKE. ANGIE IS AN AMAZING FRIEND AND THIS IS PROOF OF HER LOVE.
(c) Actually all of April and May was fucking win. I drive across country with Kol, then a WEEK LATER went to Santa Clara to meet Kol, then a WEEK LATER K came by and spent a week and a half with Vegas and IMMEDIATELY AFTERWARDS I went to Montana with K. I can't tell you guys how much I love the time I spend with K - it was the weirdest thing but I felt we were on the same energy wavelength the entire time, and everything about the time we spent together was exactly what I needed, emotionally and creatively. Then the week after that is a giant blur of sewing my first good cosplay outfit (I'm a lot prouder of myself in retrospect than I was at the time), and then down to San Jose for Fanime. Then IMMEDIATELY AFTER THAT I made my plans to move to Santa Clara and moved in June. God damn those three months were BANANAS. Pixie was my rock during this time, especially in Vegas where I was feeling stressed and honestly a bit overwhelmed and lonely at times.
(d) Santa Clara and Life In California. TBH, I never thought I'd live in California. Back in New Jersey, I was raised to believe that life in California was an idyllic paradise dream land, but that it was so so SO expensive that I'd never be able to afford it. Literately, in my mind, up until a year ago I thought living in California was as distantly attainable as my dream of living in New York City. I am still incredibly shocked that I am here. And INCREDIBLY SHOCKED to be roommates with Kol now, who've I've been friends with since at least 2003, and like Angie I am pleasantly surprised at how easily we live together. It is a fucking joy.
Totally honestly, the only serious flaw with 2010 was my work situation, which you guys know has been a giant source of stress, frustration, and shame for me. November I was embroiled in depression, but the past two months have been considerably better. I feel more confidence in my ability to get a decent job than I ever did before. In a way, my problem wasn't my job but my crippling lack of faith in myself, which causes me to act defeated prematurely, and also act like a psychopath. I'm confident that I can move on with my life with more dignity and pride now.
THE POINT of this post is that the only reason my 2010 was so amazing was because of you guys. All of you. The idea that I have such supportive friends is simply insane to me, beyond my imagination and certainly not something I thought I'd ever be able to deserve. If I can't have roommates as great as Angie and Kol have been, then I hope I never have to live with other people again. Pixie and K have kept me glued together when I thought I would fall apart. Liz and Saturday and Kate, I'm really happy to have gotten back with you guys, and your comments have helped really lift my spirits, especially in November. EVERYONE ELSE WINS POINTS FOR BEING COOL, cause you are only allowed on my journal if I like and trust you and think you are bad enough to rescue the president.
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lol so I meant to write up a big 'Best Things I Wrote Post'. I'll make it short. Best two stories I wrote were Riptide and Candlelight Dinner , IMO Riptide being the best story I've written in years and Candlelight Dinner just being fun to write. I have a third story I really like but it is on a kink meme so I will not link it here, but it had some dialogue I really loved. This year should also be remembered for me going batshit insane on writing AU stories, for whatever reason, but I think most of them were decent.
Saw plenty of incredible movies - Tron, Dawn Treader, Harry Potter 7 (which is actually the only HP I've enjoyed since Prisoner), Toy Story 3, and fuck me but I had a LOT OF FUN with Eclipse, which to me was like Twilight translated by rational, funny people. Best books were Leviathan, Tim Gunn's Golden Rules, and What Color Is Your Parachute? (holy crap two non-fiction books I enjoyed, the world is ending,) Best new music, by far, was from Private and Daft Punk. Fringe and Top Chef have been the coolest American shows, Yu-Gi-Oh! 5Ds and Moribito being the best animes. Kirby's Epic Yarn is a mind-blowing video game, you have no idea.
OKAY OVERLY LONG POST IS OVER, ENJOY YOUR 2011 :D
But I want to say that honestly, 2010 was one of the best years I had, and that is entirely because of:
(a) my birthday month of Feb being enjoyable in my memory, For one thing, VEGAS. VEGAS!!! Oh my god I should have spent a week on that vacation. Met Kol and Ren and Bri and Addie and Z and WE GAVE A SHOUT OUT TO RU and we got awesome shirts. I remember being anxious for much of February, but I remember going on Adventures with Angie that I hadn't done before, and it balanced out. Also, I think I bought my favorite piece of jewelry there, my jade turtle necklace Genbu, at the Sugarloaf faire with Rel and Angie.
(b) DRIVING ACROSS COUNTRY WITH ANGIE IN APRIL. You guys can guess that it takes a special person to tolerate 5 days together, non-stop, in a Chevy and hotel rooms. I remember the trip incredibly fondly, especially our restraunt adventures, THE COWBOY MUSEUM WHICH WAS THE COOLEST THING EVER, Foot High Pie, the Oklahoma City bombing memorial (one of the few times this year I cried, in fact, but that was because it was amazingly moving and effective as a memorial), and we talked about wildly ridiculous things, my favorites being the AUs for Kingdom: Mexico AU, GENDERBENT BANDOM AU, Subway-and-Adult Novelty Store AU (in which all of the characters either work at a Subway or an Adult Novelty Store, because along Rt 66 there were both of these about once every ten miles). As we said, we wished we had two weeks to do this trip.
Also, when I left, ANGIE GOT ME A YU-GI-OH CAKE. ANGIE IS AN AMAZING FRIEND AND THIS IS PROOF OF HER LOVE.
(c) Actually all of April and May was fucking win. I drive across country with Kol, then a WEEK LATER went to Santa Clara to meet Kol, then a WEEK LATER K came by and spent a week and a half with Vegas and IMMEDIATELY AFTERWARDS I went to Montana with K. I can't tell you guys how much I love the time I spend with K - it was the weirdest thing but I felt we were on the same energy wavelength the entire time, and everything about the time we spent together was exactly what I needed, emotionally and creatively. Then the week after that is a giant blur of sewing my first good cosplay outfit (I'm a lot prouder of myself in retrospect than I was at the time), and then down to San Jose for Fanime. Then IMMEDIATELY AFTER THAT I made my plans to move to Santa Clara and moved in June. God damn those three months were BANANAS. Pixie was my rock during this time, especially in Vegas where I was feeling stressed and honestly a bit overwhelmed and lonely at times.
(d) Santa Clara and Life In California. TBH, I never thought I'd live in California. Back in New Jersey, I was raised to believe that life in California was an idyllic paradise dream land, but that it was so so SO expensive that I'd never be able to afford it. Literately, in my mind, up until a year ago I thought living in California was as distantly attainable as my dream of living in New York City. I am still incredibly shocked that I am here. And INCREDIBLY SHOCKED to be roommates with Kol now, who've I've been friends with since at least 2003, and like Angie I am pleasantly surprised at how easily we live together. It is a fucking joy.
Totally honestly, the only serious flaw with 2010 was my work situation, which you guys know has been a giant source of stress, frustration, and shame for me. November I was embroiled in depression, but the past two months have been considerably better. I feel more confidence in my ability to get a decent job than I ever did before. In a way, my problem wasn't my job but my crippling lack of faith in myself, which causes me to act defeated prematurely, and also act like a psychopath. I'm confident that I can move on with my life with more dignity and pride now.
THE POINT of this post is that the only reason my 2010 was so amazing was because of you guys. All of you. The idea that I have such supportive friends is simply insane to me, beyond my imagination and certainly not something I thought I'd ever be able to deserve. If I can't have roommates as great as Angie and Kol have been, then I hope I never have to live with other people again. Pixie and K have kept me glued together when I thought I would fall apart. Liz and Saturday and Kate, I'm really happy to have gotten back with you guys, and your comments have helped really lift my spirits, especially in November. EVERYONE ELSE WINS POINTS FOR BEING COOL, cause you are only allowed on my journal if I like and trust you and think you are bad enough to rescue the president.
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lol so I meant to write up a big 'Best Things I Wrote Post'. I'll make it short. Best two stories I wrote were Riptide and Candlelight Dinner , IMO Riptide being the best story I've written in years and Candlelight Dinner just being fun to write. I have a third story I really like but it is on a kink meme so I will not link it here, but it had some dialogue I really loved. This year should also be remembered for me going batshit insane on writing AU stories, for whatever reason, but I think most of them were decent.
Saw plenty of incredible movies - Tron, Dawn Treader, Harry Potter 7 (which is actually the only HP I've enjoyed since Prisoner), Toy Story 3, and fuck me but I had a LOT OF FUN with Eclipse, which to me was like Twilight translated by rational, funny people. Best books were Leviathan, Tim Gunn's Golden Rules, and What Color Is Your Parachute? (holy crap two non-fiction books I enjoyed, the world is ending,) Best new music, by far, was from Private and Daft Punk. Fringe and Top Chef have been the coolest American shows, Yu-Gi-Oh! 5Ds and Moribito being the best animes. Kirby's Epic Yarn is a mind-blowing video game, you have no idea.
OKAY OVERLY LONG POST IS OVER, ENJOY YOUR 2011 :D
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Date: 2011-01-10 02:15 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-01-11 06:49 am (UTC)I'm glad you're looking forward with a brave face and strong spirit. You're a star, always have been, always will be.
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Date: 2011-01-11 04:41 pm (UTC)LET'S MAKE 2011 EVEN MORE EPIC OKAY <3